Today I woke up with a little bit of a headache. My family wanted to go into town and look at the shops with me but since I wasn't feeling well they decided to let me rest on the couch. I slept for probably about two more hours and then woke up to watch Disney Channel. Hours and hours of Disney Channel. I was so excited when I found out there was a show called "Hannah Montana Forever." I thought Miley was done with all the Hannah Montana stuff but COOL! Now I have more shows to watch. I just recently watched all the episodes of Sunny With a Chance. I LOVED them. Especially when Sunny and Chad finally start dating. I almost gave up on them. Just like I almost gave up on Bailey and Cody on The Suite Life On Deck. But they've been together for a year now! How cute is that?! I don't know... I just really love kids shows. Don't even get me started on Phineas and Pherb. I lllllooooove that show! Hahaha, oh and when my family got back they were like, "What's going on here? Did Nerissa just take some little girl pills?" Ok, I think I've figured out what I am today.
I am child-like. I like children's television shows. I am innocent (sometimes). I like to play with legos and other toys that are meant only for children.
Friday, July 30, 2010
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Zip, zip, zip
Today, my 15 year old brother, Austin and I went ZIP LINING!!! It was freaking amazing. My family was just driving through the mountains looking for something to do and couldn't find anything so we decided to look around where we were staying. There is a ski resort right next to our townhouse and they do zip lining there. The whole thing takes over an hour and a half. We had four guides. They were so cool. The whole tour is over a mile long and totally sweeeeet. Dad and Shelley wouldn't go because they were too scared. Just kidding. Shelley just had foot surgery and Dad didn't want to leave her alone. But Austin and I had such an amazing time. I loved it and will go again the next time I have the chance. Anybody wanna plan a zip line/camp trip some weekend? There's a really good place I hear that just opened up in Fayetteville, NC. There's plenty of fun things to do down there too.
I am adventurous. I like trying new things that could possibly get me hurt but as long as I'm having fun doing it, it's cool with me!
Driving Myself Crazy
So I finally got some internet. We're up in a little town in the Shenandoahs called Woodstock. It doesn't have much to do in it besides the movies (which we happen to be waiting for) but I figured since I had some time I'd blog these past few days.
July 23 Friday
So today I drove all the way to the Shenandoahs by myself. Not that I minded. I enjoyed it. It was rather peaceful. The only aggravating thing was when I made a wrong turn in the beginning of my journey. The map and directions I got were both unclear what road to take so I ended up having to turn on the GPS. The GPS kept me on the same road and it only added 15 extra miles to the trip but it's always annoying when you find out you could have saved a little bit of gas and time. But that's ok. I was safe and that's all that matters.
I love long road trips because they give you time to think or when you're with other people it helps you get to know them better. What I love even more is listening to the radio or cds when but unfortunately most of my cds have scratches on them now. I mostly listened to the radio to keep me awake. I recently started listening to hip-hop. Musicians like Kesha, Justin Beiber, and La Roux keep me going. My friend, Theresa is the one who really got me interested in this type of music. The only annoying thing about long trips and radio stations is that you have to tune into a new one every 50 miles or so. I hate driving through little towns that only have country music. I strongly dislike country music so much... UGH! Funny thing is you would think big towns would have good music but NO! Driving through Richmond was my least favorite part of that trip. They only had country, rap, and R&B. It was crazy. No rock, no oldies, no hip-hop, no techno, not even classical music. It was ridiculous.
After I traveled for 175 miles I finally saw a cop. I didn't know that cops pulled people over in the mountains. No, I didn't get pulled over. I was just being observant.
I thought it was funny when I saw a sign for Goochland and Oliville. Teehee. Bahahahahaha! It's just so funny to me.
I was really surprised when I drove into the actual mountains. It was so breathtaking. I loved it. If you ever get a chance to, please drive through the Shenandoahs.
I'm getting tired now so I'm going to go to bed. I just drove 5 hours so give me a break. :)
I am a driver enthusiast. I love signs. I love winding roads. I love driving at any speed just as long as I have somewhere to go.
July 23 Friday
So today I drove all the way to the Shenandoahs by myself. Not that I minded. I enjoyed it. It was rather peaceful. The only aggravating thing was when I made a wrong turn in the beginning of my journey. The map and directions I got were both unclear what road to take so I ended up having to turn on the GPS. The GPS kept me on the same road and it only added 15 extra miles to the trip but it's always annoying when you find out you could have saved a little bit of gas and time. But that's ok. I was safe and that's all that matters.
I love long road trips because they give you time to think or when you're with other people it helps you get to know them better. What I love even more is listening to the radio or cds when but unfortunately most of my cds have scratches on them now. I mostly listened to the radio to keep me awake. I recently started listening to hip-hop. Musicians like Kesha, Justin Beiber, and La Roux keep me going. My friend, Theresa is the one who really got me interested in this type of music. The only annoying thing about long trips and radio stations is that you have to tune into a new one every 50 miles or so. I hate driving through little towns that only have country music. I strongly dislike country music so much... UGH! Funny thing is you would think big towns would have good music but NO! Driving through Richmond was my least favorite part of that trip. They only had country, rap, and R&B. It was crazy. No rock, no oldies, no hip-hop, no techno, not even classical music. It was ridiculous.
After I traveled for 175 miles I finally saw a cop. I didn't know that cops pulled people over in the mountains. No, I didn't get pulled over. I was just being observant.
I thought it was funny when I saw a sign for Goochland and Oliville. Teehee. Bahahahahaha! It's just so funny to me.
I was really surprised when I drove into the actual mountains. It was so breathtaking. I loved it. If you ever get a chance to, please drive through the Shenandoahs.
I'm getting tired now so I'm going to go to bed. I just drove 5 hours so give me a break. :)
I am a driver enthusiast. I love signs. I love winding roads. I love driving at any speed just as long as I have somewhere to go.
Friday, July 23, 2010
A Little Life Story
I just wanted to give a little bit of a background to my dating life. I realize I already blogged less than 15 hours ago but I just wanted to give a little background to those who don't know me. My first boyfriend was in kindergarten. His name was Joshua. He was so cute. Then after that I just became the nerdy girl that no one really liked but I never knew that. I kept trying to get the attention of everyone especially the boys. My mother says I've always been a flirt, even since I was a toddler. As I got older I became less geeky and more cute but I was still stuck in the mind set that I was a complete loser and no one liked me.
When I was 12 my world came caving in. I found out my parents were getting a divorce. I had always looked to their marriage as perfect and one I hoped to have some day but nevertheless they were splitting up. Without my dad around, I had no real male figure in my home. I looked to boys and relationships as a way to fill that void. So through puberty and up I've been trying to fill an empty hole with guys and more guys.
The teen years are when you are supposed to find out who you are or want to be. I never gave myself that chance since I was always trying to be Mr. Cute Guy's perfect girl.
I eventually changed myself so much and so often I never truly figured out what I like. I did do one thing. I ended up hating myself. Last year I hated myself right into a hospital for eight days. No, I was not suicidal. But I sure didn't feel like living at the time. This is a sad part of my story. I don't really like to tell it but I feel it is necessary to give you the full effect of what early dating can do.
The wonderful thing about what happened was I realized I had a problem. That problem was that I was being co-dependent on someone to make me feel happy. I had several friends and doctors give me the advice to stop dating for a while and really take the time to figure out who I am. I am finally taking that advice eight months later. I wish I could thank each of those people now personally. Hopefully when I am a better me, I can.
When I was 12 my world came caving in. I found out my parents were getting a divorce. I had always looked to their marriage as perfect and one I hoped to have some day but nevertheless they were splitting up. Without my dad around, I had no real male figure in my home. I looked to boys and relationships as a way to fill that void. So through puberty and up I've been trying to fill an empty hole with guys and more guys.
The teen years are when you are supposed to find out who you are or want to be. I never gave myself that chance since I was always trying to be Mr. Cute Guy's perfect girl.
I eventually changed myself so much and so often I never truly figured out what I like. I did do one thing. I ended up hating myself. Last year I hated myself right into a hospital for eight days. No, I was not suicidal. But I sure didn't feel like living at the time. This is a sad part of my story. I don't really like to tell it but I feel it is necessary to give you the full effect of what early dating can do.
The wonderful thing about what happened was I realized I had a problem. That problem was that I was being co-dependent on someone to make me feel happy. I had several friends and doctors give me the advice to stop dating for a while and really take the time to figure out who I am. I am finally taking that advice eight months later. I wish I could thank each of those people now personally. Hopefully when I am a better me, I can.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Day Number Two, Feeling Like Poo
I'm feeling like poo because I woke up with a headache yet again. I think that's the fourth day in a row now. I still feel a little depressed but that's to be expected, right? This blog is really what excites me and gets me motivated.
I haven't really accomplished much today (yet). I'm moving into an apartment with one of my best friends on August 15th and my parents are moving to Colorado. I'm supposed to be packing my room up and I haven't done very much in it. I got the second disc to season one America's Next Top Model in the mail and really wanted to watch it so I decided to play it on my laptop while I attempted packing. I tried but just got so distracted. I think what distracts me most about that show is the amazing make-up they do. It's so good.
But anyway, as I was attempting to pack I was going through some of last semester's school papers wondering whether or not I should save them. I read some of them and they were mostly History (I think). They said stuff like "Italian Cardinal Mazarin was an influence on Louis XIV. Mazarin calms down the war. Mazarin is a funny name. I wonder what kind of parents he had. I wonder what his name means. Oh my gosh, I have no idea what my teacher just said." Then in the math papers I found, they would be drawings of circles with formulas and when I couldn't figure out the formulas I would just draw turtles or rabid squirrels. I still wonder how I managed to get a C in Algebra and a B in History. It amazes me.
Yesterday I started cutting up the stuffed animals my ex-boyfriends gave me. Not because I hated them but because I needed the stuffing for a couple of pillows I wanted to make. I cut the kitty cat slippers; I dissected the frog; I de-stuffed the doggies; I broke the bunny; I tore Tweety; and I baked Mr. Potato Head (not literally though). I was actually very fun. Now I have to big bags of stuffing and several shells of un-stuffed animals. Their stuffing will be great in my robin egg pillows.
Oh that's right! I didn't tell you... I decided to switch my major to interior design. It was originally general studies leaning more towards musical theatre. But I've decided what I really want to do is design and make furniture. Since they don't have woodworking at my college I went with interior design. One of my many ideas is to make a living room that looks like a forest. That's why I need robin egg pillows. Oh, look at me. I can't even talk about one thing at a time in a blog, haha. But there is good news. I did stay focused long enough yesterday to register for classes at my local community college. I'm so excited for it. I'm taking three IDS classes and English 111 again. I failed the first time because I didn't turn my work in.
It turns out the Biology course I took doesn't count towards this degree. I was so ticked. Ugh! My parents were like, "You have to take Biology, Nerissa. Every degree requires you to take a physical science." Not mine. I need a "Social Science Elective." I think it's funny when they call it an elective in college when really no one wants to take it. In high school, electives were fun classes that you got to goof off in like band or choir or weight lifting.
I wanted to clear a couple things up. I was asked if I was going to stop dating. My answer is no. I will continue to go on dates casually or with friends but I will not get involved with a romantic relationship. Another thing I wanted to clear up is the dating since I was 12. I had a "boyfriend" since I was 12. I was never allowed to go anywhere with him until I was 15. I didn't have my first real date until a month before my 17th birthday. One more thing. This year to myself isn't going to be about just me me me. I'm not going to be a selfish jerk. I definitely care about the world around me and the people in it. I just realized I didn't care enough about me. That is why I am doing this.
I really should get back to packing. I have a big day tomorrow. I have a 5 hour drive up to the Shenandoahs. I'm visiting my family then a few of my friends are coming up to spend the rest of the week with me. Hopefully I get internet up there. If not, I'll blog on a piece of paper then enter it all in when I get back Thursday night.
I am easily distracted. I find things fascinating and more interesting than what I am doing and often it gets me in trouble. I like pretty shiny things.
I haven't really accomplished much today (yet). I'm moving into an apartment with one of my best friends on August 15th and my parents are moving to Colorado. I'm supposed to be packing my room up and I haven't done very much in it. I got the second disc to season one America's Next Top Model in the mail and really wanted to watch it so I decided to play it on my laptop while I attempted packing. I tried but just got so distracted. I think what distracts me most about that show is the amazing make-up they do. It's so good.
But anyway, as I was attempting to pack I was going through some of last semester's school papers wondering whether or not I should save them. I read some of them and they were mostly History (I think). They said stuff like "Italian Cardinal Mazarin was an influence on Louis XIV. Mazarin calms down the war. Mazarin is a funny name. I wonder what kind of parents he had. I wonder what his name means. Oh my gosh, I have no idea what my teacher just said." Then in the math papers I found, they would be drawings of circles with formulas and when I couldn't figure out the formulas I would just draw turtles or rabid squirrels. I still wonder how I managed to get a C in Algebra and a B in History. It amazes me.
Yesterday I started cutting up the stuffed animals my ex-boyfriends gave me. Not because I hated them but because I needed the stuffing for a couple of pillows I wanted to make. I cut the kitty cat slippers; I dissected the frog; I de-stuffed the doggies; I broke the bunny; I tore Tweety; and I baked Mr. Potato Head (not literally though). I was actually very fun. Now I have to big bags of stuffing and several shells of un-stuffed animals. Their stuffing will be great in my robin egg pillows.
Oh that's right! I didn't tell you... I decided to switch my major to interior design. It was originally general studies leaning more towards musical theatre. But I've decided what I really want to do is design and make furniture. Since they don't have woodworking at my college I went with interior design. One of my many ideas is to make a living room that looks like a forest. That's why I need robin egg pillows. Oh, look at me. I can't even talk about one thing at a time in a blog, haha. But there is good news. I did stay focused long enough yesterday to register for classes at my local community college. I'm so excited for it. I'm taking three IDS classes and English 111 again. I failed the first time because I didn't turn my work in.
It turns out the Biology course I took doesn't count towards this degree. I was so ticked. Ugh! My parents were like, "You have to take Biology, Nerissa. Every degree requires you to take a physical science." Not mine. I need a "Social Science Elective." I think it's funny when they call it an elective in college when really no one wants to take it. In high school, electives were fun classes that you got to goof off in like band or choir or weight lifting.
I wanted to clear a couple things up. I was asked if I was going to stop dating. My answer is no. I will continue to go on dates casually or with friends but I will not get involved with a romantic relationship. Another thing I wanted to clear up is the dating since I was 12. I had a "boyfriend" since I was 12. I was never allowed to go anywhere with him until I was 15. I didn't have my first real date until a month before my 17th birthday. One more thing. This year to myself isn't going to be about just me me me. I'm not going to be a selfish jerk. I definitely care about the world around me and the people in it. I just realized I didn't care enough about me. That is why I am doing this.
I really should get back to packing. I have a big day tomorrow. I have a 5 hour drive up to the Shenandoahs. I'm visiting my family then a few of my friends are coming up to spend the rest of the week with me. Hopefully I get internet up there. If not, I'll blog on a piece of paper then enter it all in when I get back Thursday night.
I am easily distracted. I find things fascinating and more interesting than what I am doing and often it gets me in trouble. I like pretty shiny things.
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
I am trying to find out who I am.
I know that I am Nerissa Hope Couch. And I know that I am an 18 year old girl who loves cats, acting and singing but what I don't really know is the big question, "who am I?" A Year and Some Change to Myself will be about my life without dating.
One very important thing to know about me is that I have been dating since I was twelve. This was much to my parents disliking and now I see it has just gotten me into trouble. I've "fallen in love" so many times it's hard to count. I've found "the one" more than once. Every time I've ever dated a guy, I've always thought to myself, "this is the guy! I want to marry him." I ended up rushing into so many things that I never learned how to A- be friends and B- be myself. That is what I am hoping to achieve this year. I'm hoping to learn how to be comfortable in my own skin and on my own two feet.
Each day I will conclude my blog with something I have learned (or may have already known) about me. But since today is the first day I have to lay down some ground rules for myself. If you are a reader and agree or disagree or even have some suggestions to my rules, please let me know.
Rules:
No relationships
No "falling in love"
No holding hands with any male that is not a relative
No looking at wedding rings
No looking through bridal magazines
No saying "I love you" to anyone who is not a relative or close family friend
No being alone in a room with any male after 6pm (except my dad)
Now that I have that out of the way I will tell you a little bit about what's going on in my life. Three days ago my world came crashing down (again). I was dumped by a wonderful person. I thought I was going to marry him. We had plans and such but unfortunately I pushed my religion on him and he was uncomfortable with it. I was too blind to see that. A lovely friend of mine sent me a message saying she was worried about me and reminded me that I am beautiful. She was also the one who made me realize if I can't feel comfortable by myself, I will never be comfortable with anyone else. She told me to love myself first. That is what I am doing. I am loving myself first.
I am going to love myself first for 375 days. I will have my 20th birthday on the 375th day. I will find out 375 things about myself and learn to love every quality, good and bad. I will no longer be afraid to be alone after this. I will love the world around me.
I am brave. That is what I have learned about me today. I have learned that it will take guts to expose myself but I am brave and will do it. I will be brave through this year and some change to live my life with just me in it.
One very important thing to know about me is that I have been dating since I was twelve. This was much to my parents disliking and now I see it has just gotten me into trouble. I've "fallen in love" so many times it's hard to count. I've found "the one" more than once. Every time I've ever dated a guy, I've always thought to myself, "this is the guy! I want to marry him." I ended up rushing into so many things that I never learned how to A- be friends and B- be myself. That is what I am hoping to achieve this year. I'm hoping to learn how to be comfortable in my own skin and on my own two feet.
Each day I will conclude my blog with something I have learned (or may have already known) about me. But since today is the first day I have to lay down some ground rules for myself. If you are a reader and agree or disagree or even have some suggestions to my rules, please let me know.
Rules:
No relationships
No "falling in love"
No holding hands with any male that is not a relative
No looking at wedding rings
No looking through bridal magazines
No saying "I love you" to anyone who is not a relative or close family friend
No being alone in a room with any male after 6pm (except my dad)
Now that I have that out of the way I will tell you a little bit about what's going on in my life. Three days ago my world came crashing down (again). I was dumped by a wonderful person. I thought I was going to marry him. We had plans and such but unfortunately I pushed my religion on him and he was uncomfortable with it. I was too blind to see that. A lovely friend of mine sent me a message saying she was worried about me and reminded me that I am beautiful. She was also the one who made me realize if I can't feel comfortable by myself, I will never be comfortable with anyone else. She told me to love myself first. That is what I am doing. I am loving myself first.
I am going to love myself first for 375 days. I will have my 20th birthday on the 375th day. I will find out 375 things about myself and learn to love every quality, good and bad. I will no longer be afraid to be alone after this. I will love the world around me.
I am brave. That is what I have learned about me today. I have learned that it will take guts to expose myself but I am brave and will do it. I will be brave through this year and some change to live my life with just me in it.
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